I have been reading a lot of spiritual texts lately. The Bible, Nazrat Inayat Khan, Rumi, and listening to some spiritual podcasts. I identify as Christian but have a new agey style and global connections that have influenced my spirituality. Honestly, Christianity disgusts me sometimes so it is hard to fully come in to that statement, confidently. “I am Christian,” feels like it has so much baggage attached to it!
If Christianity means that I do not accept the LGBT community then I am certainly not that. If it means that I use spirituality to patronize others, I am not that. If it means I think “my God” is the end all be all, that is not quite right either. If it means I use it as a cop out, I hope to God I am not that. A Christ centered heart feels good though. The red parts of the Bible are full of a lot of wisdom that I like to work to live by.
I cannot deny, though, that I feel Christ and have a heavy background in Catholicism. I am fully aware that no matter what, each sacred text is influenced by the times and cultures in which it was written. I can intellectually and maturely hold that in regard as I read through the pages of them. That feels good.
It feels really good to know that God is present throughout the world. I wish we can put our egos aside as a whole and realize that spirituality, no matter how expressed exists within us all. Even atheists. An atheist can enjoy a sunset in awe and still feel a higher “something.” Even if they don’t express it as God. Atheists can still be spiritual if you ask me. However, no one has asked me; and they probably never will.
Sometimes I wonder if spirituality is simply homesickness. The human experience is short compared to the spiritual experience. It exists to teach souls a lot in a short period of time. Nazrat Inayat Khan explains it as that and I have been dealing with those feelings. It is almost as if what I have been reading lately is lining up with exactly what I have been experiencing. I can’t get enough information.
I have been studying cycles within myself and within nature. My menstrual cycle and my understanding of it has unlocked this huge understanding for me. Knowing what is happening within my body, biologically and what is happening in the collective consciousness accompanying a surface knowledge of the Cosmos is all lining up. I can tap in to that understanding to plan my entire month and to live day to day with intentionality. It is overwhelmingly good. It feels like I have unlocked a deeper layer of knowledge.
Kate Karpel is a breast cancer survivor, writer and traveler. She is passionate about helping others fulfill their full potential through the Young Living lifestyle. Join her as she brings wellness, purpose and abundance to every home in the world.