I have a very painful relationship path. Whenever I have had an interest in someone, they don’t want to explore it. Is it depth that scares them? I always feel that no one wants to commit to me. Then suddenly they’re off and married. Souls I would love to explore life with. So I have cut that part of myself off. I ignore my gut and let logic rule. My heart has been pushed aside so many times. I choose safety and someone willing to commit to me. Me. The one who no one else would.
This cancer. So close to my heart. It has been cut out along with all the tissue surrounding it. Nurturing tissue turned on me. Completely denied now. There is no turning back. It feels like my Karma in the physical, emotional and spiritual realm. Forcing me to push my own heart and nurturing aside as the pattern has become my own. Laying my life down in service to others. It is the only way to make sense of this survival. I surrender.
Kate Karpel is a breast cancer survivor, writer and traveler. She is passionate about helping others fulfill their full potential through the Young Living lifestyle. Join her as she brings wellness, purpose and abundance to every home in the world.